Fuzz

Imagine this: 

You’re washing dishes, playing games, reading books, scrolling through social media, working on your spreadsheets, writing blog posts, having conversations, etc. Basically, doing anything that you do on a typical day.

Throughout all of that, something in you just feels…off. Something is turned on that shouldn’t be on. Something in you is firing that should be relaxed. Something really isn’t right, but you’re not quite sure what that thing is. 

You aren’t anxious or depressed about any one thing in particular, but you’re inclined to label it one of the two. So you seek out answers. 

Bible verses on worry…

Deliverance from depression…

How to relieve anxiety…

You pour into the results and you appreciate what you find, but most of the explanations apply to people who are worried about their health, not sure about their finances, suffering from irrational fear, etc. This isn’t you, and you still don’t know what’s wrong. 

It’s not anxiety, you don’t feel trapped by fear, but throughout each day, there’s a constant feeling of something being not quite right. I call this fuzz. 

Nothing is actively wrong in your life, you’ve got plenty of things to look forward to, tons of opportunities to relax, and a bunch of things to occupy your time, but for some reason, you can’t just be still. Everything feels sort of fuzzy. 

So – what is this? I have found that it’s usually spiritual warfare. Sometimes it might just be our own psychological hang-ups, but I often have to stand firm in truth in order to beat it. 

To get through it, I rest on the word of God, and in particular this verse from the prophet Isaiah. 

You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Isaiah 26:3

If I ever find myself wrestling with this fuzz, I meditate on this verse, and it brings me into a secure place with the Lord. It reminds me that He is sovereign over my life and that He is my protector. 

I’d like to write more about this because I think it’s something that many can relate to, so I’ll be sure to circle back in the near future. 

But for now, I’ll conclude with these words spoken by Jesus:

28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30